Learn From Everythings

Sometimes I feel so happy. be grateful for what I've been through at the same time, I feel very sad many sweets moment that happened in my life now it just only a memory a memory that maybe only me remembered a memory that only me feel a longing a memory that only me want to repeat it again really want to replay all of it my childhood, play football, games, bicycling, much more at some point, I cannot hold back my feeling how much I missed it hoping someday I will wake up in my past, at my old bed, my bedroom, sunshine, the air, the sound of my house, same activity, same friends and the most thing I've missed is the same atmosphere sadly, The truth all of it is only happening in my mind I must face the reality The truth in front of my eyes become a man, continue my life but in the end, I just want to be a little child in his bedroom playing games, go to school happily and close my eyes hoping everything never changed. forever. a letter to my self. I...

I am They call me fariz lived for 19 years writing this blog for my obsession like many others writing my memories day after day the month after month years after years memories fade became darker, until only a huge blank of void I can remember nothing like before I felt don't have a past the point where all of my life was began where everything started loving memories don't die, it saved be grateful to God for what I've encountered enjoyable, happiness and loving do not dissolve in Cerebral cortex sad, hatred, disappointment hard to erased people come and go, they are not lost, they are changed don't you think all people cannot be replaced? All you need is their feeling for you, not from people that leave you, but people that come to you I'm here, I'm waiting, I'm lost. Bring me back, I'm seeking for help, I need to find who I'm before. All my past, all my memories everything everything everything replay all the memories...