Feeling never changed

Sometimes I feel so happy.
be grateful for what I've been through
at the same time, I feel very sad
many sweets moment that happened in my life
now it just only a memory
a memory that maybe only me remembered
a memory that only me feel a longing
a memory that only me want to repeat it again
really want to replay all of it
my childhood, play football, games, bicycling, much more
at some point, I cannot hold back my feeling how much I missed it
hoping someday I will wake up in my past, at my old bed, my bedroom, sunshine, the air, the sound of my house, same activity, same friends and the most thing I've missed is the same atmosphere

sadly, The truth

all of it is only happening in my mind

I must face the reality

The truth in front of my eyes

become a man, continue my life

but in the end, I just want to be a little child in his bedroom playing games, go to school happily and close my eyes hoping everything never changed. forever.
a letter to my self.
I'm happy now. thanks for enjoying my time in the past, I hope I will enjoy my future too!

I write this letter to let go all my feeling, to let go all those feeling that I want to live again as a child, to set free everything I missed.

PS : To everyone who read this, I hope you will let go all your feeling. let it out, all of it, cry for it, let it out all your feeling about what you really missed as a child, I pray for you in the future you will have happiness that more than your childhood memories :)