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It is been a long time

Today
I sit on my bed
the same bed that be with me long time ago
I never feel so comfortable
my room, my very own room
I feel it so much, the feeling of very own that I slept here before
the feeling of everyday I woke up to go to school
I missed it so much, I missed how people woke me up
I missed how I get dressed to went to school
I missed how I get laying down when I really tired fighting the world
I missed everything
everything
at the same place, same memories, different time
it's been three years since my Senior High School was done
I still cannot let go all of my feeling how much I missed it
everyone always have a special place in their heart about memories
for me, I missed my childhood, my junior, my senior moment
Today
I still continue my life, at the same bed, different year, different story
My finish line is still far away
My bucket list will be wake up at my own bed without thinking about how many day left to stay here
I will
I will return to my own bed, it's only three years left! after that I will sleep at my own room
my own bed
feeling proud, to my self
how my struggle, pain, sadness, anxiety was pay off
to fulfill one of my own bucket list
sleep at here again :)
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